Steam

Life is a funny circle.  My life is anyway.  I go to work, and sleep.  I have no personal life -- nor do I really have time for one.  Which really sucks.  The last time I got to see my best friend I had to leave after a show, drive 3 hours and spent the 5 hours I was there sleeping... because it was the middle of the night and I had to leave by 6AM!!

I'm trying hard to be happy by myself... I was told that I was being selfish for wanting to be happy with someone.  What's the point of having someone if they aren't supposed to make you happy... if we were supposed to be happy alone we wouldn't have this great desire to have a companion.  

ARG!!

I need a life.  I need a friend.  I need everything right now.

I'm having mini panic attacks at almost regular intervals these days.  I don't know how much more I can take before I completely shut down.  The only thing keeping me out of bed these days is the desire to not get fired.